Well, here I am. Completely unaware of how to use this crazy site. I signed up forever ago & never made anything of it. Today.. I've decided to try this. Today is the day I dread. Today is Febuary 6th 2012.. the day everything started for me. Since I haven't told you yet.. i'm 24 years old & I have a undiagnosed illness. Today is 8 years since i've been sick. This year is especially hard for me because last year I was pretty sure by today that I would finally have an answer under my belt. And although, I still think I have this specific illness.. its a tricky situation and hasn't been fully explored. It started off when I was with my friends snow tubing. I came home that night and thought I was going to die. I had the worst head pain of my life. Since that night I've been to over 32 doctors and have had a chronic head pain. Some day's its ok & other days I wonder if I'll survive the pain. The pain got to an unbearable point that I had to be "tutored" out of high school. I got into an amazing choir program & ended up missing the highlight of that. I also missed my senior prom & a senior trip. I wasn't well enough to make it through college so feeling inadequate I on a whim decided to go to beauty school. They were very kind with me working around my headaches. I even met a few fantastic people there. As my "beauty school graduation" neared the headaches got even worse & I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything with myself unless I fully committed myself to finding answers to my illness. By this time, my headaches were not the only thing coming up on my health chart. As time went on I've developed many other problems that from day to day make my health just the top priority for me. I did find an amazing man, who I am now proud to call my husband and best friend. The worst part of all of this is.. on top of all the pain, i really did have a lot of dreams. I wanted to go to college to get a job to chase for the stars & I felt like I've been robbed of many things due to this. On my good days, I took full advantage but the bad days outweigh the good by a million. Because I do not have the ability to work at a job, i've been able to start my own small business that I am so proud of. I've only had it for a few months but I am so proud. So this is my blog, its about my headaches & everything that goes along with my undiagnosable nightmare. It's about my business. My little boutique that I am so excited to be able to work around my bad days to do something with my life even when I felt like my headaches had won. It will be about my favorite books & t.v. About my amazing husband & my little family of my 3 pooches that we saved from hurricane katrina. I can't tell you it won't be bumpy. My writing might have horrible punctuation but for once in my life.. i'm lying it down on the line. Instead of hiding my stories on the top shelf in the closet. Maybe, I will find some answers I wasn't looking for....
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